Hey Baby!!

My life changed in a flash in Spring of 2009. One day I was planning the whole summer out and the next minute I was canceling all those plans. We had decided to start trying for a baby in fall of 2009. Figured that gave us enough time to do all the traveling and other adventures we had hoped to finish before it was baby time. Somehow thats not what life had in store for us. The baby time came without notice and without permission. I still remember the day I took the test and then showed it to my husband. We stood there, staring at each other in shock, unsure which way to react. On one hand we were not quite certain that we were ready for this. On the other hand it was a blessing we had hoped for just a few months earlier than expected. Once the initial shock was over and we finally accepted our destiny, I couldn't believe it, I was going to be a Mom!

Now, sitting here just weeks away from my due date, I can't believe how fast these last 7+ months have passed by. It has been quite a journey: the sickness, the scares, the worries, the adjustments. Planning for a baby is not as easy as I had thought. Then again, its not as hard as I had expected either. Its a gradual process for a reason. I think its God's way of getting us used to the idea of such an enormous undertaking. The millions of things you need to do to plan for a little life, its just unbelievable. How can one tiny human being require so much from you? This little person, my child, my baby, I'm responsible for a life inside of me. It truly is surreal and unlike anything I've ever experienced before. As hard as the initial stages were, I am really amazed at how 9 months can produce a whole new life.

I am so anxious to meet this baby, so apprehensive for so much of what is unknown to me at this point, so thankful for all the help and support I have had through this process and so curious to see what life will be like after a permanent change like this. At this point I just hope it all works out well, the baby comes out healthy, I can recover and normalize quickly and most of all I do everything I'm supposed to do for this child in the best way possible.

Wish me luck! Hope I pass this test, one of the biggest of my life!